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Clementine tried not to talk about it.

She knew Andrea worried about her a whole lot. She knew she was trying her best to make it better. But there was really no making it better. Most nights pieces of what she remembered became clearer and more whole through nightmares. To stay away from the nightmares, she tried not to sleep much. She was tired most of the day because of it, but at least she didn't wake up sweat drenched and shaking. She kept hoping it would get better, but honestly it just kept getting worse.

There were a lot of bad things to remember. What happened back home, the bad man who did things to Andrea, the place they were all sent to -

All she wanted to do anymore way stay inside unless she had to leave. Sure, she tried to do normal things - tried her best to keep going. She took Bailey out for walks. She visited places close to the apartment. She did her best to get ready for the new school year, which she honestly was dreading a whole lot already in a way she never felt before.

It was a warm, muggy late afternoon that found her sitting on the stairs again, slid all the way to one edge so she didn't get in the way. Bailey, off her leash and sitting at the bottom step, seemed to stand guard. She brought her book of pictures and her crayons down with her, intent on finishing the drawing she started that morning after she was woken up again by a nightmare.

She couldn't find the words to talk about it, but she could draw it. She could draw a picture of her sad and crying with people on the ground with 'X's over their eyes. Next to her stood Lee, who she worried now about more than ever before, frowning too, the gun Andrea now had in his hand. She could draw pictures of what she'd seen when they went to somewhere not home and not Darrow too, all the destruction and the giant machine in the sky.

It was the first one was what she was working on at that moment. She stared at the unfinished drawing for a long moment before quietly taking a crayon and starting to slowly color it in, careful never to wander out of the lines. It was as if part of her thought if she could make a good enough picture, she could make that particular dream go away for good.

She knew it wouldn't happen that way, but it didn't stop her from trying.

Date: 2013-08-31 04:44 pm (UTC)
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Jesse hasn't been around much lately. At first, he thought he could manage it, using sometimes but still showing up and doing stuff with Clementine when he was sober. But over the past few months, he's started doing it more and more, and then brought crystal into it again, so there was no way in hell he was going near Clementine. Or Andrea for that matter.

It's a good thing he's been clean for a day or two when he comes across Clementien on the stairs outside of her building, because he knows it'd be kind of shitty of him to just walk by without at least saying hi. Not when he heard about how they got sent somewhere and only just got back recently.

"Hey," Jesse says, his hands in the pockets of his jeans as he approaches, "Drawing day, huh?"

Date: 2013-08-31 06:12 pm (UTC)
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Jesse frowns, realizing right away that there's something off. Clementine's been a pretty quiet kid as long as he's known her, but there's something about this that's different, somehow.

Maybe he'd know what's up if he'd actually been around lately.

"Bailey, maybe?" Jesse suggests, and he looks down at what she's got so far, just the one person.

Date: 2013-09-07 10:11 pm (UTC)
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"Yeah, sure," Jesse says, and now he's sure there's something wrong. Like maybe she's mad at him because he hasn't really been around for a while. But he's also been high lately, and the last thing he wants is to be around Clementine when he's like that.

"Look, I'm-- I know I haven't exactly been around a whole lot lately," he says.

Date: 2013-09-13 04:52 am (UTC)
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"What? No, I'm not—" Jesse starts, and then cuts himself off. He didn't even think. He'd just stopped showing up out of the blue without even saying anything to Clementine. Adults are usually cool when something like that happens, or they'll call or whatever. Jesse's not really around a lot of kids, so sometimes he forgets that you've got to go about things different. And it probably goes double when the kid has been through everything Clementine has.

"You didn't do anything wrong," he says, "and I'm not mad at you."

Date: 2013-09-15 01:50 am (UTC)
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Jesse scrubs one hand over his head, and frowns, shutting his eyes for a second. He should have said something, or talked to Andrea or something.

"Not possible, yo," Jesse says, and he takes a seat next to her on the step, "I've just... I've just been a really bad friend. I should've come by or something."

Date: 2013-09-22 03:48 pm (UTC)
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He knows it wasn't for no reason, but he can't exactly tell Clementine that he was using and didn't want to be around her while he was like that. She's a smart kid, he knows, but maybe he just doesn't want her to think of him like that.

"I was having a bad time of it too," Jesse tells her, though he knows it's not the same and that it's bullshit for him to pretend that it is. He sighs.

"Have you ever done something wrong and were embarrassed for anyone to find out about it?"

Date: 2013-10-01 03:27 am (UTC)
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Jesse knows what he's saying is half shit. It's not the same deal as Clementine and Andrea getting stuck some random place just because this city likes to fuck with them. And there was the coke and the meth, but really, it's this shit with the Lobos Locos guys that's had him distracted lately. Either way, none of it's stuff he can tell Clementine about, or even Andrea for that matter.

"It's mostly cool now," Jesse says, though he knows that's not really true. He doesn't know where this goes next, but at least he knows he's not about to smoke a bad batch of someone's shitty cook, someone who doesn't even give a crap if people die.

"Either way, I shouldn't have just, like... disappeared. I'm sorry."

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